Monday, January 30, 2017

Dear Dr. Z

Dear Dr. Z,

It's a sad reality, but young people with multiple chronic illnesses are used to being stigmatized, and treated as if we shouldn't sick at our age. As if somehow this is our doing.

So on this Monday afternoon, when my Type 1 Diabetes had been going out of control for over a week and my nurse told me that it was time for the emergency room, I thought I knew what to expect. I expected to go in, maybe get scolded a little for having such bad blood sugars (even though we didn't know why they were haywire and I was doing everything I could to get them down), to be brushed aside, and to be made to feel like an inconvenience for whoever had to treat me.

Instead I met you. You came and told me that you thought I had a kidney infection based on my tests so far, which is why I was in DKA, and then you asked some questions. These questions prompted my other conditions to get brought up. You asked me when I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's. The fact that I have endometriosis came up, and then the fact that I have a neurogenic bladder came up. The list kept growing and you had to keep pulling my chart back out. And then you said "Wow, that's a lot of stuff". I laughed and said yes, expecting for you to tell me I'm too young to have all of that, like I was used to hearing. Instead, you said, "You're a very strong woman for dealing with all of this, I want you to know that." How can I describe how I felt after you said that? Shock? Gratitude? Overwhelming emotion? There are no words. Because your words today made me feel like a human instead of a lab experiment. Your words showed me that there are compassionate doctors out there who understand the struggle of being young and chronically ill. Your words are ones I will remember for a very long time. Thank you for making me feel strong when I felt anything but.

 So though I don't know if you'll ever read this, thank you Dr. Z. You made a difference in my life today.

1 comment:

  1. One of the strongest person I know. Continue to be an inspiration to others, and keep smiling. The world could always use more smiles!